Showing some balls....and then regretting it.

The county called *again* today and it was the same frickin' Auditor/Tax Collector office where I've interviewed three times now with the same people [and five times with the county overall.] I decided I was tired of going through all of this so I explained to the lady that I had interviewed there five times and it was obvious I didn't have the experience they were looking for, so I was going to pass. I think she was a little surprised.

It felt good, but now I'm starting to wonder if I should have gone ahead and interviewed. Maybe if it had been one of the other county offices, but this one has turned into a farce due to my interviewing there so many times.

Also have a paranoid thought that maybe they were offering me a job out of the blue, but why would they do that without interviewing again....I don't remember that they actually said interview, but I'm sure they did.

Really don't want to be here anymore, but in a difficult situation as far as preparing to leave....

Interview...

...actually went okay. Can't really think of any moments where I should have said something else. The interviewers were nice and didn't really "attack" or challenge the way a lot of other interviewers have, questioning my experience etc.

Guess we will see. I'm not betting on it, but will just consider it a happy surprise if the say yes. Should know in a couple of weeks.

200.

Maybe that is a good place to stop. Well, not stop, but be on hiatus for a while, to figure out what the ultimate purpose of this should be. Writing about my job seeking woes is incredibly demoralizing.

Speaking of which, I have an interview tomorrow, I have a fatalistic attitude at this point. I cannot snow these people, I am just some phony accountant who only has one year of experience on paper, which consisted of maybe two months of working and ten months of screwing around on the internet. Just going to try and put it all out there and see what happens.