I haven't remembered my dreams much over this past year or so. I seem to get the bare minimum amount of sleep necessary to function, but only lately have I felt rested and slept deeply enough to remember many of my dreams. My dream life has not yet caught up to my real one. I still am married in my dreams, and make decisions based on how they'll affect both of us, worrying about things that my spouse probably won't like or agree with. Speaking of which, we are approaching the one year anniversary of my divorce being final.
I'm curious how long it will be before my dreams catch up to reality, before they will start to reflect the world I'm in now. My cell phone is pretty common in my dreams at this point, I don't know how many times I've dreamt about posting to Instagram or Facebook. It stands to reason that eventually my relaitonship status would make its way to my subconscious.
I did dream about someone I dated at the beginning of the year and with whom things ended badly, but thankfully ended just the same[bullet dodged.] I really told them off in my dream, so in that sense I guess I got closure. That is a common theme when I do remember my dreams, being able to really let loose and tell someone what I really think. Maybe it's something i should emulate in real life...
Thursday, August 5, 2021
Sunday, August 1, 2021
Seven squared.
I am now seven squared years old.
The world seems to be getting more busy, and I am trying to keep up with it. I miss the days of 2020 when streets were quiet. Keep going back to that thought---what if I end up hating the normal version of this city? What I preferred everything to be closed? I like when people keep their distance from you when you walk past them. I often still do that. I hate the new variant, but I am starting to put the mask on again and avoid certain events.
I'm in a long distance relationship now and it's so much better than being with someone all the time. I will always need my own space, some separate parts of my life. I like the novelty and excitement of not seeing one another very often and wanting to treasure the days. I still feel not quite fully ready, but I've learned if you wait for the perfect time to do something, that moment never arrives.
I'm most happy about the library being open, and having a pile of books again. I have a pile of books I currently own, but it's just not the same. I also still buy books frequently.
My job is not great, and I'm not sure if I can do it long term. I can if I quit caring. I think that's how government workers end up the way they do.
The world seems to be getting more busy, and I am trying to keep up with it. I miss the days of 2020 when streets were quiet. Keep going back to that thought---what if I end up hating the normal version of this city? What I preferred everything to be closed? I like when people keep their distance from you when you walk past them. I often still do that. I hate the new variant, but I am starting to put the mask on again and avoid certain events.
I'm in a long distance relationship now and it's so much better than being with someone all the time. I will always need my own space, some separate parts of my life. I like the novelty and excitement of not seeing one another very often and wanting to treasure the days. I still feel not quite fully ready, but I've learned if you wait for the perfect time to do something, that moment never arrives.
I'm most happy about the library being open, and having a pile of books again. I have a pile of books I currently own, but it's just not the same. I also still buy books frequently.
My job is not great, and I'm not sure if I can do it long term. I can if I quit caring. I think that's how government workers end up the way they do.
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