Ash Monday

Survived the fires--they put us on evacuation level 1, which means it's possible you might be evacuated, but never went further. Level 2 is you will will probably be evacuated, and level 3 is get out now. I started packing just in case, but things were better by Friday and today they moved us completely off to level 0 which is just normal life I guess. There's still smoke everywhere and I can't go outside. I tried a few times and couldn't tolerate it.

Been drinking a bit too much, at least during Labor Day weekend, but have slowed down since then. My problem is I enjoy walking around outside and going to different beer gardens, and by the time I get to the third one I am a bit tipsy, though I'm trying to just drink less or lighter things. I at least get a lot of exercise this way. I've lost interest in my old walking paths I used to take. There's something depressing about it.

Work is an absurdist comedy and it's doubtful it will ever change. At least I have a job.

The writing has been going okay. More poetry again, and making videos and even songs. Still doing OKCupid. Been on a few dates, nothing that has really stuck. Only one bad experience so far, but that was on Bumble which I ended up having to delete. Not sure if I really want to get serious yet, but feel like I should at least make an attempt to date in case something happens that I would otherwise miss out on. At least it's social interaction. I'd probably be happy with some close friends, but that's never seemed to be something that I was particularly good at. I'm way better at online friendship.

I feel like I'm a kinder person than I used to be at least.